"Insomnia"
She is beautiful
and can be so much
Fun and funny.
Inside is hiding
an insatiable need
for constant proof
of her worth.
There is no satisfying it.
It rules her and all who
try to love her.
It is a vast emptiness
That must be filled!
She takes drugs and alcohol
to put herself into a deep sleep.
When she wakes, it is
right there waiting.
A big spending spree
will calm it for a
few hours, but never days.
Where did it come from?
This horrid need?
She has been given
countless gifts from God.
She doesn't see them.
She can't grow up.
Indulging her makes
her more needy.
She is like an actress
Who comes out of her
inner reality
at times
And plays the role
of wife and Mother.
And then as suddenly
as she appears
Slides back into
the darkness.
I can't sleep
I worry
Is that a baby's cry?
Kes© March 2009
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