"Insomnia"

"Insomnia"

She is beautiful

and can be so much

Fun and funny.

Inside is hiding

an insatiable need

for constant proof

of her worth.

There is no satisfying it.

It rules her and all who

try to love her.

It is a vast emptiness

That must be filled!

She takes drugs and alcohol

to put herself into a deep sleep.

When she wakes, it is 

right there waiting.

A big spending spree

will calm it for a 

 few hours, but never days.

Where did it come from?

This horrid need?

She has been given

countless gifts from God.

She doesn't see them.

She can't grow up.

Indulging her makes

her more needy.

She is like an actress

Who comes out of her

inner  reality

at times

And plays the role

of wife and Mother.

And then as suddenly

as she appears

Slides back into

the darkness.

I can't sleep

I worry

Is that a baby's cry?

Kes© March 2009